4 Doctors and 5 Years Later

In June of 2009 my regular OB discovered a uterine septum when I complained of mid cycle bleeding. 

I was referred to several specialists who did not help and really made me very discouraged.

My SIL recommended her doctor and I gathered all my bravery to go see him.

He was awesome!!

While I waited for him, I sat with fear wondering if I was going to be blown off again.

Or have to try the 4 first steps every doctor had made me go threw already.

Even though they had not worked.

He did not do that.

He listened.

He made suggestions.

We made a plan!!

The phrase that kept running threw my head the entire time I spoke to him was: "Keep it simple".

So here is a rough explanation of what is wrong with me!!

I will have you know this is the diagram the doctor drew me!!

Like I said, Keep it simple!!

Top left: this what a normal uterus looks like.

Top right: This is what ultra sounds and my c section made us THINK my uterus looked like.

A septate uterus.

Bottom left: What I REALLY look like.

I have a bicorniate uterus WITH a large septate that flares into a wedge at the bottom.

I was supposed to have it all surgically removed today, but when the doctor got in there he realize that the removal of so much tissue combined with the curvature of the bicorniate and the flare at the bottom was going to leave a large amount of scar tissue.

To the point where is would render me infertile.

When I had woke up from anesthesia, the doctor was astounded that I not only had ONE uterine malformation, but TWO!! 

He described it as finding a 2 headed snake in the forest!! 

He further was unable to describe his shock that I was not only able to have ONE  but TWO children.

He said the fact that I was able to have Ella vaginally was a one in a million chance.

He kindly counselled that if I wanted another child in the future, he knew some of the best infertility doctors in the Vegas Valley. And I believe him. He's at the top of his field and has excellent connections.

But you know what? I'm not worried about it. I am very happy and content with my 2 beautiful little miracle daughters.  We didn't have plans to add to our family any time soon and if we do, and can't, I won't be destroyed. Maybe a little disappointed.

To have proof of how blessed we have been and how we have repeatedly defied the odds, brings a great amount of comfort to my heart. How could I ever complain about what I DON'T have when what I DO have is amazing!?

I feel very blessed today. 

 Out of surgery.

 I told Brent if I came out babbling like a fool and claiming to be able to fly, and he recorded it.....I would kill him in his sleep. I was not kidding.

But I came out calmly and just fine!!

 I HATE IVS. If I never have another IV again in my life, it'll be too soon.

I feel so bad for those who have serious illness and have to wear these awful things around the clock.

What a way to add to discomfort and worry!!

I wanted to chew myself free!!

 Brent brought me present for when I woke up.

It's Stitch!! From Lilo and Stitch.

I saw this guy at the Disney store last summer and his arms were wide open and his crazy grin reminded me of Scarlet!! I just wanted to hug him!!

(If you notice, the window is blurred out. I had to come home and edit it because we happened to be parked next to a 'butt taxi" and Brent didn't realize it. If you are from Vegas, you will be familiar with what I'm talking about!!)

I have never forgot him.

So my wonderful husband remembered and went and got him for me to wake up to.

Brent has been wonderful and supportive in the year of 2014.

It has been a hard year and he has exceeded expectations in being sensitive and supportive.

He has truly been loving and caring and has held me up in some dark times.

I'll get into that all a different day!!

I'm actually thinking of starting another blog that shares all of the advice and wisdom of my new therapist and my experience at the 12 Step Program.

Let me know some feed back on that!!