Repeat

I've said this before, and I'll say it again.... I'm so sorry for all the girls out there who struggle with infertility. I think that would be the hardest thing in the world to have to experience. I can't imagine how much you have had to cry!! I just read a story about this young woman who tried for 5 years to conceive and tried IVF 3 times before she was able to get pregnant. What a hard journey!! The way she described the first time they tried, and it didn't work, was the most powerful, painful thing I have ever read/heard/seen/ comprehended in my entire life. It was open and well written, and completely heart wrenching!! It made me think of all I have to be grateful for!

So..........I would like to say, I am so thankful for Ella Ruth, even if she is crazy. Because she is also very smart and beautiful and sweet. I'm so thankful for our next little one, and I'm thankful for my Robison genetics that makes it so possible for me to get pregnant despite my little 'situations'. :)


Thank you

The Cat's Out Of The Bag!!

In case you haven't heard....Brent and I are expecting baby #2 on October 14th! I thought I would rip off my sister's idea and do a little Q and A.

How far are you along? 10 weeks exactly
Have you been sick? Nope!! Just so extremely tired it's unnatural
What are you having? Too soon to know!
How do you feel? Like a fat tired cow! I'm pretty short, obviously, so there is little room for secrecy!!
Have you had any cravings? YES!! I think several cows have lost their lives these last few weeks. I just want meat and really juicy fruit. Think pineapple and melons.
Any food aversion? Bakery stuff. Breads, cake, pie, especially doughnuts.
Have you been to the doctor? Yep!! Twice!! I've been to my awesome OB and my specialist. He has all the cool equipment!

On the verge of giving out too much information, Brent and I weren't sure we were going to be able to have a baby #2. After a million tests and too many drugs, we discovered last fall that I have a few...situations! First: I have PCOS. If you do not know what this is, I'll give it to you in a nut shell! It basically makes you have too much of the wrong hormone, and your body goes haywire. In bad cases you turn into a man. Ok, not really not really. BUT you loose your hair, gain weight uncontrollable, possibly deepen your voice, and can give you terrible acne. SWEET!! This is awesome don't you think? It also makes it really hard to get pregnant. On the coat tails of this happy news, the same ultra sound revealed a septate (or septum) uterus. That means, it is divided by a muscle wall into 2 separate parts. Also hard to get pregnant, and gives an 85% chance of miscarriage. It also carries a high pre term labor rate. ALSO causes: swelling, bleeding, pain, etc. Yeah, I had a hard time with this awesome news and was terrified to even attempt getting pregnant again. But I really wanted another baby. So we hope for the best and sure enough!! We are now VERY EXCITED to welcome #2 into the world next fall!!

Sorry I gave all that crappy medical info. I just felt it need to be said. I had some really unkind people say some really stupid things to me when I gained 20lbs from one of the treatments I tried. I'm usually pretty private about this stuff, but I felt like maybe someone else out there needed to hear it. So there it is!! We are SO EXCITED and I am so happy. Hopefully we'll know next month some time what color the new room needs to be!!

Home Improvement

There has been a flurry of activity at the Bowler house hold. First, I decided it was time to paint the hall bathroom. It went from dingy, nasty pink TO.... slightly brighter pink. Well, at least it's fresh!

We are also in the middle of putting up a long awaited fence. It has been quite the process! This is Brent, Nick and Nathan marking out where the posts will go. This weekend we are going to auger the holes, cement in the poles and stretch the chain link. Holy expensive work!!

My front door was bland and the paint was beginning to chip off. So I painted it. Isn't it stunning?! Sometimes I go outside, go to the street and just stand and look at its beauty. (It used to be the same color as the trim. )

Brent was digging many, many holes for all the many, many flowers I purchased for the front beds. As he was digging a particularly deep hole for my new pink jasmine, he encountered this monster!! It took him 15 good minutes and several shovels to pry it from the ground! Of coarse I had to have the hole RIGHT there. :)

My beautiful pink jasmine. I love it. In the back ground you can see the new arbor I bought to go over our walk way. We are hoping to encourage the jasmine to gleefully crawl its way up the metal. It smells SOOOOO good.

*More to come on other paint jobs, the finished fence and the rest of the flowers!!

Molly's Top Three

These are the top 3 things that Molly, our cat, hates to hear. Said by Ella:

#3 "Kitty calm down! You're too fast!"

#2 "Kitty I smash you!!"

#1 "Oh kitty!! I have a net!!"

Molly's days of being wide eyed and innocent are over.

My Sweet Sweet Beautiful Nightmare

This darling little girl is going to be the death of me!! Over the holiday season, I slacked off on my role as 'the pack leader of our family' and my oh my I'm suffering. The amount of ignoring me, screaming temper tantrums that could shock a demon, anger and sheer stubbornness has been enough to make the devil sit down and sigh. I appealed to my sister with all of my woes, and she recommended a book entitled Love and Logic Magic. She even let me borrow a copy! I read a few chapters, disheartened and low on faith. But decided to give it a try. I figured it couldn't be worse than the insanity I was experiencing! And low and behold it worked. My little demon is currently slumbering away, and I have a whole 2-3 hours of private time. (Insert angelic singing here)
Now usually I don't find the need to go by books. I think of them as maybe guidelines more than rules. And some of them I think are just stupid. But seeing as how at this point, I am willing to trade my sister my child for BOTH of hers, I thought something must be working on the Wheeler end!!
So thank you to my sister for the help. And thank you Ella bug for being semi agreeable for the first time in your little life! Amen! Holy crap! Where's the Tylenol!!