Farewell Faithful Friend

These are my beloved Nike running shoes. I purchased them in January of 2007.

I have since put over 2000 miles on them! I kept a notebook with exactly how many miles but I recently lost it. : (

Needless to say they are dead. They are holey, the tread is worn thin and I am practically running on pavement.

So this is their replacement. Exact same shoe, just a different color. They were purchased in January of 2009, but I haven't used them yet. They just don't seem to feel like my faithful grey shoe. I have been waiting for the others to disintegrate right off my foot and I think they are almost there. I guess I should wear these but I just have such an attachment to my life supported shoe!!

Oh the Humanity!!!

The searing heat of the desert has sent me screaming for the indoors and central air conditioning! The monotony of being confined indoors is growing weary. I asked Brent what I could do to ease this boredom and he only shrugged his shoulders, so I changed my blog back ground..... TA DA!! Well people, that is just about the most excitement I have to report on. The heat is getting so oppressive it is even cutting in on Ella and my walk/run every morning. She is up and at it usually around 6. But lately she has been getting up at 6:30 and by then it is almost too hot to go! My Tahoe has an on board thermometer and this morning is was 95 degrees at 7 am. BLAHHHHHHH! I have hope that I have made through the worse of it and soon the down hill slope of burning hell-like conditions will ease, but we shall see.

On another note: Only 4 more months until the Christmas season begins!! YAY!! I love Christmas and go crazy with decor, presents and the like. And I'm not chic, tasteful Christmas either. I am tacky, red and green explosion Christmas!! Santa Clause with a real faces and Rudolph and the whole Griswold extravaganza! I can't wait.

Well, I don't even have a cute picture to post. SO you will have to be satisfied with my incoherent ramblings! Good news is: Brent has a whole week of vacation NEXT week so hopefully I will have something exciting to say!!

Things I Don't Understand

I have been thinking about all those girls that are having a hard time conceiving and I am sad for them. I didn't realize it was so common. But I can think of 6 people close to me just off the top of my head. As hard as pregnancy, labor and delivery, birth and parenthood has been; I feel like every woman should be able to have this experience. Nothing is more special than feeling little kicks inside your belly. Or that rush of relief when she finally slides out and the physical pain is over. Or the first time I held her in my arms or when she figured out how to nurse. Of coarse there is GER and the constant crying that comes with that, mounds of diapers, spit up, weight gain, and all sorts of other difficult things. But I still think that EVERY woman should be able to have the chance! The chance to know it for themselves. To see those eyes gaze up at you with complete trust and love. For all those poor women who have struggled, who have cried, have lost hope or are too afraid to hope, I am so sorry for you. I am so sorry that it has been so hard and hurts so much. It isn't fair and I have deep sympathy for your pain. I wish it could be different and that the loving women of the world would not have to have empty arms. They are the ones who deserve it. They are the ones who deserve babies. I know that their hearts would love them more than anyone can imagine. Because only a mother knows how much a woman is capable of loving.

Happy Birthday Ella

I can't believe my baby is a year old. She has gotten so big so fast and it breaks my heart. I have been thinking about her and the day I had her all day. I checked my entry after I brought her home and I didn't tell the whole story of the day she was born. So I will. I woke up on July 12, 2008. My brother called and wanted to go lift weights with Brent. I decided to go so I wouldn't have to sit home by myself. While they lifted weights I decided to walk around the gym. When we got home I felt the over powering urge to clean my house. Half way through dusting I had "an evacuaton of fluids". I didn't call the doctor because I had a false alarm 4 days earlier and I wasn't going back to his office again for nothing! I was due on August 6th. If my water had really broke, I was 25 days early. But it happened again! We called the doctor and started on our way to Mesquite. At Wells Road my water officially broke!! (For those of you who have not experience your water naturally breaking... Yipes!) I had experience NO contractions up to this point. Contractions hit VERY hard and only 2 minutes apart. Everything was sooooo fast! From the minute my water broke until the time she appeared was almost exactly 5 hours! I only pushed for 25 minutes and Ella came into the world.
The nurse handed her to me and she wasn't crying.She just stared up at me with great big eyes. She was so beautiful and the first thing I thought about her was, "her nose is perfect." It was! It took me 3 days to get the nerve to touch it. She was so soft and warm and I instantly fell in love with her. I am still in love with her.
Happy Birthday to my little girl, the light of my life.

Our New House

This is the front view! I cut off the garage in the picture. I couldn't back up enough with out being on my neighbors doorstep. The yard needs love but that will have to wait until spring. It's too hot right now for new grass.

Living room

Living room again

Family room (there is another sofa on the right)

Dining area (with my poor, old, scarred up table)

My beautiful, spacious, wonderful kitchen. It is my favorite room in the house. It has a huge pantry and lots of cupboards that have pull out drawers! I love it soooo much. So much space it brings tears to my eyes. Anyone who has ever had a crappy, rental kitchen with ONE cupboard understands!

Ella's bathroom

We are waiting to paint the whole thing on Brent's vacation week. I picked out a neutral, tannish-gold color. It's pretty! Ella's room will be green to match her "ladies". We are so excited!!

4th of July

Brent, Ella and I all went out to the lake with the Wheeler family for 4th of July. We found the most beautiful little cove! It was more like the ocean than the muddy lake usually is. All the kids had so much fun. Ella LOVES the water. She splashed and splashed and then tried to swim. I thought she nearly drowned but she came up sputtering and laughing. This was her life jacket. It was kind of bulky and it looked like it was choking her!

This was our pretty cove. The rocks were sandstone and created a nice shallow pool, perfect for babies!

Ella liked being bobbed up and down in the deeper water. Brent would throw her in the air and let her splash down into the water. We had so much fun!!

Happy Birthday.... to ME!!

I turned 25 on Sunday June 28th. I am officially 1/4 of a century old and my brother tells me, nearing the end of my life. Thanks. We had a good evening eating food and hanging out.
Ella is laughing and lunging for me in the picture. She loves hugs! She scales me like a monkey on a daily basis.

Grandpa is not doing a very good job keeping Jara out of trouble! That is Grandma's purse she's rifling through.

Mommy and Ella! You can kind of see her little pony tails. (They are actually her devil horns, I quit trimming them. jk)

Family Photo! Not very flattering to any of us!

Jack Jack and hid daddy. He is so mellow... it is NOT fair.

We moved in to our house this weekend. YAY!!! When all the boxes are unpacked and put the place together a little, I will show off some pictures. We love it so much. It has so much room and so many perks only a real home can have. i.e: Big shower, jacuzzi tub, garage and huge back yard.