Thursday, May 19, 2011

My Mind Is Consumed!!!

As every pregnant woman can probably attest to, I am CONSUMED by all thoughts baby!!
  • Will the baby come early?
  • If early, will it be TOO early?
  • Will labor be fast again?
  • Or will it be totally different?
  • Will I need a C section?
  • What if Brent's at work and it is a lot faster than last time? With Ella I was in labor for 5 hours and 1 minute. I remember because I looked at my phone, ready to call my mom and my water broke. It was 12:38 and Ella was born at 5:39.
  • So if it is faster, will Brent get home in time? He has to come in off the road, get out of uniform, and drive to Mesquite. My mom was only in labor for 2 hours with me!!
  • And if it is that fast will I not be able to have an epidural? This SCARES me. Yeah I know people have done it and choose to do it the natural way, but I am not one of those who wish to have the experience!!! AT ALL!!
  • And if I have an epidural, what if my legs stay numb forever?
  • Or what if it doesn't work?
  • Or what if it comes un-numb like it did with Ella? Thankfully it was only a little bit, and I needed it to let up a little or I couldn't feel to push.
  • What if it's too early and I have to be taken to Sunrise Hospital and have my specialist deliver me?
  • What if my mom & dad are in Canada at the time?

And the list goes on. Obviously the more I think about it the more panicked I get. And the more panicked I get the more hysterical I become!! I'd like to think I am not the only one who gets consumed and worried over every little thing, but am I? Does anyone else freak out like this!

Note* I have been posting more often because I'm BORED and my thoughts run away with me!!

1 comment:

Annie Leavitt said...

you've been hijacked by the hormone train.

let me know if you figure out how to get off, i never have : )